What Will Today Bring?

I had been having a pretty craptacular day today.  Uncertain about the future....about a place to live....about an income....you know the kind where you feel like just going back to bed and pulling the covers up until tomorrow.  Something happened tonight that really made me stop and think about life.
About 8pm and older couple pulled in, came into the office and told me that they wanted to pay for a room for a young couple they had found broken down on the road.  I just kind of nodded, gave them the lowest rate possible and as I was checking the young couple in the older woman said that she had had a beautiful day and that this was her pay it forward.  I smiled and told her I totally understood.  They left, the young couple went to their room and I thought my night was probably done....I was wrong.  About 30 minutes later another older woman came in with a young woman and asked if I had a room.  She explained that she had found the young woman shivering and crying in the park and after talking to her, found out that she had been recently raped and that the people that was suppose to meet her here and take her on the next leg of her journey had not showed up (it sounded like an underground railroad thing where people help others in abusive situations get to a safe house).  She wanted to pay for the womans room for the night and asked if I would keep her safe until it could get all figured out.  As she paid and left her last words were "the angels will watch over and pay it forward when you can".  I am thinking wow this is not a usual night at the Inn.  Just before lock up tonight I had a mother and daughter come in and ask if they could park in the parking lot and sleep in their truck so at least they wouldn't be in a truck stop etc.  Well to make a long story short....2 people before that had paid for rooms and all they asked was for it to be paid forward....what else could I do but give them a room that was warm for the night with the same admonition....pay it forward when you can.
This experience had really made me feel small for feeling down about my own situation.  I have pulled up my boot straps and to coin a phrase from Mom "put my big girl panties on".  I  don't know what the next few days. weeks, months and years will hold for me but I do know that I have angels watching out for me....that prayers are answered....and that my life is by gods will and not by mine.
Thank you father for the examples of unconditional love, selflessness, generosity, and knowledge that you have given me....especially this day!

3:10 to Yuma

Early years

Adulthood

I was watching the movie 3:10 to Yuma last night.  I have seen this movie a few times but last night it hit me how much Aaron and Christian Bale looked alike.  Not in most of his movies, just in this one.  I knew that I loved the movie and maybe now I know why I enjoyed it so much.

(This post is not meant to offend anyone....just sharing some thoughts)

Maybe its because I miss my family so much lately especially my children.

 

This is one of my favorites.

I think that Aaron would have been alot like this character if he had lived during that time.

If you haven't seen the movie....do!!!

Its a great movie.

My beautiful Momma

This wonderful woman is my Momma.  She can do it all.  From raising an amazing family to driving the boat while dad fishes.

She has a great sense of humor....

She loves the outdoors and taking the road less traveled!!!

She loves my Dad with all her heart....can you believe that they have been married 57 years?

She loves us all unconditionally, has taught us so many things about life, and has always been there for us through laughter and through tears.

This is my beautiful Mother and I love her with all my heart.

Right now she is facing some challenges with her health.  We need to stay close to her, let her know how much she means to us and how much we love her.....And we need to pray for her that she will be held in the healing hands of the father, have his comfort and protections, and that she will be blessed with health, happiness, and love.

I am here for you if you need me Momma and I will be home soon.

Walk Away

This is just how I feel today.  I am getting tired of just having to swallow things and walk away though.

I guess over the years, I have had  to learn to follow where I am lead to go.  Its hard to have blind faith and just answer the call often without knowing why.  Perhaps this time it is just that I need to be closer to home.