Dog Days

Today my sweet Duke went to live with a new family. Duke came to live with me after Aaron died. He is so full of life and he felt that his purpose in life was to protect me and to keep me warm at night. He would wait until he thought I was comfy then he would push the covers with his nose until he could work himself under the covers. Then after much fanfare and adjustment he would finally find his place and go to sleep. I often woke up to his snoring and believe me he could really snore the rafters off.
When we moved to our new home, which was much smaller and had no fenced yard, Duke became depressed because he was no longer able to spend a warm day outside in the sun without being on a leash. He hated the leash and in return let everyone who passed by our house know how much he hated it. So we started looking for a new family for Duke. Today we found one. He has gone to live with a very sweet family in St George. They have 5 kids who think he is the best thing ever and he again has a big back yard to play in or just lay in the sun.
Duke you have no idea how much I love you and how very much you will be missed. I know you are happy and that makes me happy too.

Colors of fall

I love fall and these are some of the beautiful images taken up on Kolob a couple of weeks ago. I love fall and seeing the colors change in the high pines. It really gives me a sense of peace and balance.

Tagged

I am - A mother, a sister, a friend.
I think - I will survive.
I know - that everything happens for a reason.
I miss - Sara and Aaron.
I fear - loosing someone else that I love.
I feel - alone.
I hear - Doves outside
I smell - Chilli cooking.
I want - peace, knowledge, acceptance, understanding.
I crave - my sisters.
I cry - a lot.
I search - for knowledge and understanding.
I wonder - about forgivness.
I regret - More than anyone will ever know.
I wish - I could hold all of my children and tell them how very much I love them.
I love - The solitude and peace of the high pines.
I care - because I don't know how not to.
I always - want to be accepted.
I have - experienced more heartbreak than I thought possible.
I worry - that I am not good enough.
I am not - patient!
I remember - Genevieve Devenish...Grandma Dev.
I believe - we are what we make of what is given.
I sing - often at karoke (and pretty good)
I argue - if I know I am right.
I write - to bring peace to myself.
I lose - a part of me everytime a tear falls.
I listen - to hear what I need to know.
I don't always - remember to be thankful for what I have.
I don't understand - life.
I can usually be found - alone with my thoughts.
I need - understanding.
I forget - everything. I don't have a good memory at all.
I am happy - walking in the mountains.
I tag
No one because this was mostly for me to think about!
If you choose to follow the tag feel free just copy and paste then put in your own answers.

In the arms of the angels!!

Aaron

Sara

It has been a long time since I wrote anything but it has been a long and hard year. In Sept 2007, I left my job in Wyoming to have surgery on my knee. It seemed like that took forever to heal and get released back to work. Just as I was ready to be released, my world fell apart and changed forever.
On christmas day 2007 my oldest son was killed in Phoenix.
On July 27,2008 my oldest daughter died in a swimming accident in Phoenix.

I have so much to say but will have to wait. Sometimes I have to much to say but right now the hurt is so great that words fail me. Have patience.....the story will come out in its own right time.
Sleep safe in the arms of angels my children!!!

Out of the badlands

Its finally time for rotation and it couldn't happen fast enough. This time around it has been like living in a pit of vipers. I have been having conversations with a friend in Alaska (perhaps it will be more someday) and he has invited me to come up for 2 weeks in September. It has been several years since I have been to Alaska and am really looking forward to it...in fact a lot of what keeps me going right now. He has a small guest lodge on Kodiak Island and it sure looks like paradise compared to this place. Speaking of this place.....does the wind ever quit blowing in Wyoming???? What is up with that?
What else can I say right now except still single and hating it.....12 hr days 7 days a week really bites.....and that is enough complaining for now. Nobody really gives a crap anyway so why bother.
Today is a pretty bad day but tomorrow will be better soooooo
Till the next time!