Lonely

The angels are lonely,
That is why it rains
The mountains are lonely,
That’s why it stays

The fire is lonely,
That’s why it burns
Time is lonely,
That’s why it turns

The mirrors are lonely,
That’s why it reflects,
The stones are lonely,
That’s why they're etched

The flowers are lonely,
That’s why it catches the eye
The birds are lonely,
That’s why they fly

The wind is lonely,
That’s why it blows
The clouds are lonely,
That’s why it doesn’t know where it goes

The ice is lonely,
That's why it melts
The tides are lonely,
That's why they swell

The darkness is lonely,
That's why it haunts
Heartbeats are lonely,
That's why they don't have a song

Everyone is lonely,
No one knows what to say
Even death is lonely,
That’s why it takes you away

Reoccuring Dreams

When I was in my late teens, I began to have this dream. The scenarios were different but the man was always the same. At first I would just see him standing on a hill, his back to me. The wind would blow his long dark hair out and he was always wearing a blue chambray shit and jeans no shoes or socks. As time progress his face became more visible to me. He had strong features and a strong physical presence. Sometimes he came with wolves...sometimes with deer....sometimes with a hawk. Always the sun was shining but the breeze was blowing. I have never heard him speak in a dream....instead his eyes just seem to stare into mine with a message that I do not yet understand. I had the dream again last night. He came with all the animals this time and I felt that he was trying to tell me something I really needed to know but before I had the message, the dream ended. I have never felt fear with this dream nor any other negative feeling. I have felt that there is a message and I need to figure it out because it is so important but I don't know how. I have probably had this dream 25 to 30 times over the years and the message I got not so long ago seems to prevail here too..."You are living on borrowed time." I just don't know the what, where and why's.
What I am asking is for insight from any who read this. Maybe you have a clue to the message that I am missing. I know it is important and your help my bring a way to clarity.
No I don't see him as a man in my life.
No I don't see it as past life experience.
Those are the only things I do know.
Why Him?
Why those 3 animals?
Why the sun and the wind?
Why the same hill?
More questions than answers but I know dreams do carry messages for us especially when they reoccur so vividly and memorable.

Seasons of Life

Life can be measured by the seasons.
Spring brings new birth but is also known in the Indian nations as the dieing season. Many animals that have made it through winter just don't have the strength to be able to wait for plants to grow to sustain them and go on, but also when many give new life.

Summer is the time when the possibility of of bounty can be seen upon the land and when the sun turns the warmth of her face to us.

Fall is the time of harvest and for preparations for the next season take place. A time of beautiful color and bounty for all.

Winter is the time when silence will blanket the land with the first snow fall signaling a time of rest for many. For those who have prepared, it will be a time of peace, joy, and harmony.

So like the seasons will our life be led. It is such a miracle they way all things of this earth fit together so well. The great spirit definatly has a plan for all things that are here as blessings for this world.

ABC's, Sunshine and sunflowers

This is where I am in life right now....sunshine and sunflowers. And now more about me.....yes I stole it from Jason but to good not to post.

ABC's About Me.

A - Age: 29 and some months....if you really know me you will know how many months.
B - Bed size: Queen
C - Chore you hate: Scrubbing a floor on my hands and knees.
D - Dog: Wolf hybrid but really like cats better.
E - Essential start your day item: Hair brush then tooth brush.
F - Favorite color(s): Red definitely!!!!
G - Gold or Silver: White gold or silver...hmmmmmm
H - Height: 6' but I may be shrinking.
I - Instruments you play: Piano and flute.
J - Job: Motel Manager
K - Kids: Yes
L - Living arrangements: Apartment
M - Mom's name: Carol
N - Nicknames: Red, babygirl, some others better not put here...LOL
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: PTSD night a few months ago.
P - Pet Peeve: People that leave trash all over the place and never think about it.
Q - Quote from a movie: "I love the smell of napalm in the morning."
R - Right or left handed: Little bit of both
S - Siblings: 6 last time I counted.
T - Time you wake up: 6am work days and late as I can on days off.
U - Underwear: Hmmmmm... Yes
V - Vegetable you dislike: Most of them unless they are raw.
W - Workout style: 1000 stairs a day and lifting laundry...does that count?
X - X-rays you've had: To many to count.
Y - Yesterday's best moment: Feeling the sun on my face and kitty kisses.
Z - Zoo favorite: Big cats

So now you know a little more about me. Hugs and kisses!

LIFE

I thought alot about this statement before I used it as the header for my blog. Over the last few days it has played in my thoughts over and over due to conversations I have had of late and events that have and are still overshadowing my life. The only conclusion I can come to is this.....I can not go back and change the past no matter how much I want to. There are many painfull things in the past that if I could have done differently or could change I would but the could of, would of, should of, if, ands and buts only keep life in a negative place. That is a place that no one should live or want to live. Life gives us experiences both good and bad so that we may gain knowledge and wisdom not so that we have to keep beating ourselves up over them. I have made a choice to everyday find the positive in life, to quit living in the past and allowing the negative to control me.

I know there are questions that need answers, rumors and inuendo that need truth, wounds and pain that need healing.....it has to start somewhere, so let it start with me. Let it start in goodness and love. Let it be a positive and nuturing healing for all those it touches.

DO YOU KNOW THIS MAN????

If you know him, you will know that he is my DAD. If you see him around be sure to wish the best DAD in the whole world a HAPPY BIRTHDAY on August 2nd.

I love you DAD and hope that you day is as very special as you are. How old are you now??? About 35???? I know that you have more energy than I do and you look great. Keep it going cause we want you around for a long time to come.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!!!